The oddities of me and my life lately.
The things I have come to love about myself.
The things I have come to love about myself.
I say words and phrases like "the weary has set in my bones" and "hurts somethin' fierce", if not just for my own pure enjoyment, for my sister who thinks it is ridiculous and that she must "citify" me. My goal is to become like the girl from the movie "27 dresses" by keeping my own collection of bridesmaids dresses over the years, though I don't think I'll ever hit 27. I sometimes think it would be swell if I had a cute southern bell accent. No such luck. Though at times I wish I was little and petite, because that would just make the whole southern bell accent thing cuter, I like that I'm 5'10" and ridiculously buff, in a cute and feminine sort of way of course. ;)
I like my coffee order even though it is outrageously long. They say that your coffee order tells whether you are a laid back person or uptight depending on it's length. I'd like a grande non-fat, cinnamon dolce latte with whip and extra cinnamon on top, please. I prefer to think that my coffee drink says I'm secure enough in myself to order a detailed beverage. I would like to just say, I'd like a grande cup of joy, please, but it seems not all Starbuck's baristas know what I'm talking about.
Sometimes when I needed to get out of the dorms and away from the world for awhile I would go to a movie by myself. Not very often because those sorts of things are so much fun with friends and family, but I realized that I actually didn't just not mind going by myself, I enjoyed it. The first time I went to a movie by myself, I realized I was much more secure in myself in than I thought. I feel that even though my answer to the question of what I want to do after college seems vague to almost everyone I tell, it feels specific to me, just a little not set in stone.
I have come to learn to whom I can share my whole world with and to whom I must keep things guarded. I had to learn how to walk away from a friendship that was really not healthy for me, which as it turns out is really hard for me to do. I don't like leaving people. I learned it was OK. good even. I love that I can tell Kayli anything that pops into my mind and that I laugh until tears fill my eyes almost every time I'm with her. I can't wait until her wedding in May to celebrate with her. I like sending cards covered in hearts or cheesy sayings to my friend Jody. She loves them too, don't let her lie to you.
I absolutely love that my sister's dog guards my room in the morning until I wake up. I think she knows it makes me feel loved. It should also be known that the only thing standing in the way of me calling her "my dog" is that every time I do my sister points out I don't pay for food or treats or vet stays. Psh... love runs deeper than money Whitney! ;) I love my sister and her dog. Maybe my sister a little more than the dog. ;)
I have been asked A LOT lately by total strangers if I have a boyfriend. Since I don't, I then get asked "Why not?" To avoid the personal nature of such a question I think I'll go back to the antique shop and see if I can buy Prince Charming (pictured above) for $8.93. I could carry him with me wherever I go. Then when I am asked the very popular question for people my age, "do you have a boyfriend?" I'll just show them my trusty frog and save me all the dodging of the "why not?" question.
That won't seem weird at all.
me.





